After some great feedback from my peeps, I'm going to keep this thing going. Thanks to everyone who reads this and loves me anyway.
In response to my last post, I have since been back to the cardiologist, and all tests have come back normal. This is a huge relief considering my family history, and considering your heart is, say, one of the most important organs in your body. I have also been back to a new chiropractor (save your rants for someone else...), and I am challenged and encouraged by her point of view and the treatment plan she has set out for me (read: I'm kinda scared crap-less). Her main goal for me (and essentially for my family) is to go completely grain-free (not just gluten, but all grains). This concept is hard for me to wrap my head around, considering I'm known around these parts as the casserole queen (or maybe just to my husband and a few select people who often eat my cooking). Of course, that's probably one of the main reasons for my, ahem, weight issues - casseroles are the easiest and most filling options. Since I was NOT a cook when I got married, this became the way for me to impress my husband with my growing culinary skills (or expose his lack of a palate...):
"See, babe? Isn't that delicious?! Who cares if it only has 4 ingredients, and 3 of them are cream-based?! It tastes GREAT! I can COOK!"
Needless to say, we're taking baby steps (i.e. going to Olive Garden for date night last night. Fail.) I plan to do a lot more research and to obtain a few new cook books. The chiropractor specifically recommends the Paleo Diet, so we'll find out more about that in the coming weeks and months. It made me feel better to know that it took her and her family of 6 almost 2 years to go completely grain free. I have a gut feeling that this is the way to go - it's time for change. This is going to be a bit harder in good ole' Alabama (where the portion sizes are ridiculous, the good stuff is more expensive, and if it's not cooked in some sort of fat, you're missing out), but we're going to try.
I've also made some strides in getting out of the hole. God has been extremely gracious, and I'm so thankful that I can be totally honest with Him about the way I feel. As friends of ours prayed over us the other day, we're coming out of winter and into spring, and I am hopeful, for the first time in a long time. My mother-in-law even made a comment last night about how good it was to see me smile & laugh...and I didn't want to punch her in the face for it. I feel like that's a step in the right direction.
"Turn and face the strain..."